显。。。

显啊~~~
很显啊~！！！

开学前一星期就回到宿舍了。。。
我说，日子还真的是无聊。。。
因为还没开学，我很显。

来这里的第一天
很不想留在这里
我一个人，很难过。
像去年一样来到这里的第一天第一个晚上
一个人的晚上，
一个人哭好几回。
想找点声音来让自己不那么害怕
也不懂怕什么
又没做亏心事。
唉。。。
虽然我偶尔喜欢独来独往。
可是寂寞的感觉，
可以很狼狈。

来这里的两天
完全就是和世界断了线
和家人和他，
只能通话连线。
三天后，终于可以上网了。
不过，要看pps和youtube
是妄想。
神经hostel management为什么断了我的闲暇乐趣？
还好我有高人指点
我什么都没说，
他还能心灵感应到我想看 [下一站。幸福]
找了那个specific site 让我一click就看到了。。
好幸福噢~
和他真的很心灵相通~
不过，hostel的线真的不行用。
实在是太滥了。
太糟了，吐血。。。

四天前要po的，
今天好不容易买了P1
才可以上网。
真的是。。。。吐到乱。

life is boring now.

还有还有。。。
然后，我没有roomate.
听说要到下个sem才会有新人搬来。
可以享受一人世界。
会很棒吗？！
没有~还好而已。。。
不过，我蛮喜欢可以一个人，
大声的和他video call. 不用悄悄话了。
整个房里静悄悄的。
双人房我一人住。
绝对有足够的私人空间。
两张床，我不贪，一床够睡就好。
我一个橱柜不够放衣，
不管了，我照用多的那个橱。
哈，我是女王了。
不管。。。
可是，是寂寞女王。
哎！


很寂寞。很空虚。

突然想起家里有很多好吃的
我忘了带来。。。

我现在有思乡愁
还有相思病。

快点开学。
给我忙一点。。。

我要细细滴

回想起过去的几个月里。。。
发觉自己的确是一个少根筋的女朋友。
有这样的女朋友，是可悲还是可爱？
其实我很难过。

做任何困难的事都不能打倒我。
因为我知道我有毅力去坚持。
再辛苦，都继续。
我有大人的思想。
可是，遇到妮妮，我真的真的，
搞不懂。
我是爱情白痴。
真的很难过。


没有优点,都是些 惹人生气的缺点。
1。天真？笨: 和妮妮一起，不懂得像一般女朋友一样做会做的事。
告诉我，教教我，我该如何是好？
2。很不细心: 常常从双人行，让妮妮变成单人行，孤单又担心的找我。
我不懂，为什么我可以突然消失？
3。不懂体贴: 每次都因为自己的粗心大意让妮妮伤心难过。
讨厌这样的自己。
4。野蛮任性: 虐待妮妮。
是我该做的事吗？
看着那个伤心失望的脸，我的心里真得 很痛很痛。
虽然每次妮妮都说没事，可是，我慢慢的感受得到你的感受。


我以为这段感情里，成熟面对就是最好的。
其实不然。
感情很稳定了还不够。
妮妮很好。
可是就是我，我缺乏了一些甜蜜元素。
我要改变。

我正在学习中。
学习着，女朋友守则和爱情方程式。

这就是爱。

Friend Forever

1st 6A gathering at 意游渭尽。26.12.2009

My primary gang: 3 littles from the left (a tok fish, tweety bird, yi bun)
The girl beside me: Le Si. She was the head of prefect. My yumcha gang.
The girl standing behind of me: Hui Min. She was also my secondary school friend, we were very very good friend that time :)

My friends~

The five guys are (from the left) :
Nixon Ooi Hion liang: the very well-known boy in my primary aka nini.
Neo Hong Jian: talkative and hyperactive aka little red.
Pang Yu Bin: the tallest and naughtiest boy in 6A. Now, he is still the tallest.
Kang Kean Hin: a very outstanding guy although he used to be a lazy bum.
Jerry Sim Lik Chea: eh... not really know him well, but he has a pretty gf now.
Haha.......

Hehe... 20.02.2010

Another P 6A class reunion.
Glad to see many old school friends.
After apart for 9 years.

Even though some of them were studying in Foon Yew as well,
we didnt actually talk to each other b4!
This gathering brings us together again.
Every one is doing great in their study field.
Many of us do not change much.
though our ways of thinking differ.
We become more mature
*not too sure about this as there is an exception lol :p

the gay on the left is Little red Neo Hong Jian. The one i mentioned in the exceptional list.
but, he is cute and humorous XD

I was really enjoying throughout the night.

Formal class photo :)

Up:
Khor Tze Sin (1st from the left): He was our class top-scorer. Now studying TCM at S'pore NTU.
Tai Kai Pik (3rd from the right): He left us after PTS. He is a very shy yet intelligent person, studying at NTU as well.
Yeo Wei Long (the last one): He was my neighbour last time. Dont know where he studying now.

The girls.

Chua Jun Hong (1st on the right): 6A class monitor and prefect. She was the President of Chinese Orchestra in Foon Yew High School, also the 'Flower of All' in the orchestra. Now studying in Taiwan.
Gan Hui Ju (the middle: Prefect. She will be heading to UK to further her accounting studies.

Hoping to see many other classmates in coming years.

6A's spirit shall never fade.
6A ROCKS!

Cherries. Love Portion.

I have committed a crime.

For the past months...
I abuse a drug.

Love Ecstasy.

12.02.10.

It's Friday.
Our day.
We celebrated our first valentine's day at TGI Friday's.
Because, we will not be seeing each other for 2 months.
Together we celebrated our 6th month ann

and my bday on March.

Kinda sad. :'(

Presents from him :)
I am very grateful...

He and She.

We'll still be like this when we reach our silver age.

Part of our memories...


A blissful contentment.
I cherish my valentine.
I treasure every moment we been together.

零距离

有你陪伴的最后一天。
我要坚强。

00:08
半周年快乐 :)

明天以后的两个月，没有你在身边了。
要重新回到那个似远非远却又不近的地方。
重新适应，独立没依靠的日子。
我想我可以。

但是，我还是会很想念你。
因为你对我的好，给我的爱，值得我留念。
值得我想念
值得我
很爱很爱你!


[比零少一] の 距离
:P
　

The Moments

Hohoho~
Last Saturday we went to MacRitchie Reservoir Park at S'pore
for kayaking!
which was held by Malaysian Student League of NUS.
My first experience ever.
It was completely fun!!!

So many kayaks on the lake.

Strolled in the park.

Do not feed the monkeys as it alters their natural behaviour and
causes them to be aggressive to human.

Used up all our energies to propel the kayak through water.
* Notice the way we paddling. Lol~
He purposely did it to tire me.
*what the ~tut~* :p

Splashed through the puddles.

Instructing me to keep paddling
as if he were Captain Jack Sparrow.
:'(




After the session, we returned to his hostel
to get a bath.
Smelled horrible.


The little encouragement he drew for himself.

Lol :p how cute!
Ask for my signature somemore :)
tak boleh tahan... XD



Food sold in his hostel canteen are really nice!
Tomyam soup with rice, green curry chicken, hotplate pork rice.
Yummy! Gosh~ I miss them again!
Compare to our Monash cafeteria. I can only describe it in one word.

SIGH~

The Bottleneck

Such cutting words were a dagger to my heart. No one can perfectly understand one another. Like I, could never figure out what's under one's mind. I may have the abilities to soothe and counsel one, but do i really help? I am not a psychologist. I am not a mind-reader. Coz every one is born to be a good performer, mask the feeling that felt deep inside the heart. How am i supposed to do when one doesn't open oneself to others?

What's shown on the face?
Happy? Are you?
Generous? Are you?
Blissful? Are you...?
A tough pretender or a fragile victim from a misfortune?

Shall i blame someone for bringing the sorrow and miserable experience into this cruel reality?
Whatever has been done cannot be undone.
If time could be rewound, would everything turn out fine and was in the expectations?

Try to put myself in your shoes. Put down whatever that's happened in the past. I can ensure you a better life.
But, You have to trust yourself.
Have faith.