The last post of 2010

Oh... it's been quite some time since i last updated my blog right... First, I have been sick twice in one-month time and until now i still catch a cold and cough. Medicines just don't help even i finished them. My face is terribly pale. Second, I am kinda lazy to blog. Third, I am very busy with my work.

Initially planned to visit to HK yet it's not fulfilled. His parents was there in Nov when i was having exams as they had sth to do during Dec. Anyway, my bf has just come back from HK on last Wednesday! I met him on the next day. We hanged out with his family till weekend and we had a really good time and a happy x'mas in Sg.

Day 1: He just had a haircut and i was gonna have my hair permed.

Day 2: Going to Sg.

Yea, Some things that bf brought back from HK. 
He got me a new handbag. 
I really like the Arnold Palmer little umbrella.

Gamila secret's soaps. Gamila soap is said to have healing effects after one month of use. Lavender for my mum as birthday gift. My mum is using it right now. She claims that so far she feels good with it and her skin really smoothened and lightened. Let's see how it works after 3 weeks :)

Today's the last day of 2010. It's my mama's birthday and also her fruitful day. haha. Other than the Gamila, siblings got her a rosy brown Bonia watch which is the latest design, and my pa bought a new Panasonic inverter refrigerator for her. Gonna celebrate mum's bday with pizzas and we have already prepared a secret recipe's cake for her. Hopefully mama will have another joyful bday :)

bf is now with his family and relatives at pulai spring. Don't know how he is doing there...little poor thing coz he is sick as well...his parents are sick too :(

一厢情愿是一种烦恼

Emo-ness hits me hard. Feel like crying. Why am i so pessimistic?

I guess I am under great pressure. Thats why i cant control my emotions.

Exams in progress….

Buck up…

I miss him….

How could i doubt about him…? Am i feeling insecure?

I just cant figure out what caused me to think so badly.

I seriously need brainwash, arhh...

2 more months, he will be back...i am looking forward to his coming home.

It's just a weary song, i dont understand how it can swing my mood exactly.

I am too sentimental liao.

Hey Lynne, you are a stupid nut. grr....

Sleepless Nights

Shedding tears in the middle of the nights

I couldn't fall asleep.

I guess i have insomnia...and maybe, a little depressed.

No, there is no problem with my studies.

Though i feel stressed.

No, there is no problem in my relationship.

We are just fine.

I am okay. I still can cope with them.

Perhaps i need a treatment with TCA or a tranquiliser. 

I am asking for nothing else,

but some things that i have been long for.

Hopefully things will turn better in years.

I am learning not to simply lose my composure.

I am learning how to see the irregularities of life normally.  

I pray...
please listen to the voice of my heart if YOU feel me...

The look of love is in my eyes

Tears flow.

I am now back to the place where i belong.

My home. 

Seriously,

I miss my parents so much now

even though they are just right here beside me...

It's the same feeling i have towards my lover.

I saw my papa's smile today.

I saw the look of happiness in my mama's eyes.

I know.

They are the most important persons in my life.

They are, irreplaceable.

They are the greatest parents.

I love them...

I miss them...

I will bring this smile and the look with me wherever i go.

I swear...

变化莫测的我

哦~ 其实今天的心情基本上一直都是很down 的。

神经质得自己突然大哭起来，无法控制自己的情绪。

妮说我的眼泪要被珍惜。。。不能一直这样哭。

所以我总觉得自己真得很没用。。。

一难过就无法自拔。。也许真的是太空虚了。。

心情低落得想一个人去吃三文鱼生鱼片来让自己快乐些。。。

敏敏叫我去看电影，我都很难为的拒绝了。。就单纯的想一个人静一静~

妮知道我一个人很辛苦很难过。。。

结果海派地叫我跟敏敏还有他的两个男生朋友们出去看看电影，或许心情可以好些。。。

我就听话的去看了场。。。<恋爱通告>

 哦!!!我要说，这电影实在是太好看了。。。

除了杜明汉和宋晓清间纯纯的友情和爱情~

中间夹杂了许多搞笑的情景~

喜爱华乐的知音们~这真的是个很不错的电影。。。

开始时有点小废~可是你不得不爱上他们~

最喜欢四重奏的部分~还有力宏唱<你不知道的事>那部分。。。

每个情节都紧扣着我的心~

总之就是很赞的说~

然后呢，我买了我超爱的 Baskin Robin 的绿茶冰淇淋和葡萄朗姆酒冰淇淋~

今天是三十一号嘛~hiak :p

看来接下来的几天，心情都会很好了说~
可以大口大口吃了！

还有还有~当然我也吃到了ebikko sushi 还有salmon sashimi~

朋友还带了我们去雪花栈吃了好好吃的冰点~

吖吖~

整个人的心情都甜起来了~ 

或许

我就是那么容易满足吧~

[♥]

It's his 4th day in HK...

I still cannot accept the fact that he is already there...

 I wonder why...

Perhaps our physical distance is even further away? Actually that's not a big deal...

I should have already used to staying alone without him. 
Why am i still feeling lost? 

seriously i miss him really much!

From the day he steps into my life, things have really been changing...

what i perceived of myself in a relationship before: an independent and a tough me,

had already gone.

I realize i can be so weak.... i am just an ordinary girl.

I have just become more and more relying on him.

It's not a habit though.

When he was in JB or Sg, i could receive few calls and texts from him every week.

After the first call he made to me once he reached HK,

i hardly receive a call or a text from him.

It's expensive and i understand.

So my phone is now already in hibernating state...haa...

there we just make use of skype.

 And, whenever we miss each other, we leave messages in the inbox .

I still can order him to play country story, do this and that for me. :p

Life goes on as usual.

But i am missing him more and more from days to days.

My emotions will go up and down every time i read his blog...

I am not blinded by his magic anyway :p

Recently he blogs more intensively...

He updates everyday and those posts make my every little day.

He does so to let me know how he is doing there...

Really hope that he can soon adapt to the new environment 

and pick up Cantonese in no time.

He is a fast learner, i have faith in him.

I am really grateful. 

Thank gods!

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Just came back from my sweet home ytd...

had really enjoyed those days staying at home...

 my youngest bro didn't bully me :)

it's so much blissful to eat my mum's cooking.

i seriously don't like and still couldn't accept KL food (except Japanese food).

salty and oily. (i'm sorry, no offence yea....)

My taste buds are not choosy, i just ask for some bland yet tasty food

I can eat alot. But i just can't make myself to eat more when i am here. 

Every time when i face those food, my appetite will just automatically turn off.

I don't want to waste food though. 

Therefore i always force myself to finish them all. Barely i could.

Still have 2+ years to go... 

Anyway, i should make myself do it even i dont like it.

 Hey Choon Ling, eat more!!!

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Tmr is National Day.  

Parents wont be around for the whole next week as they go traveling. 

Babies said they want to see giraffe....

so papa and mama are going to bring my nieces to Malacca Zoo.

 I said, should bring them to the crocodile farm. 

Those who are naughty will be fed.

Those who don't eat much and are very small size, 
will be eaten up by crocs in few seconds.

They were frightened lol. I am bad. Not in purpose though.

They are now already at kinder one. Learning still in progress :)

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It's now already week 7 :(

So many things to do, yet so little time. 

Presentation, assignments, reports and tests

are coming up in 5 week time.

Hopefully i can cope with them...

   must buck up Choon Ling.

Yankee Doodle....

The song and melody of yankee doodle keep going around in my mind....

Lying on his arm as my pillow and his hug as my bed...

He sang rock-a-bye baby to make me asleep

and later this song to me to cheer me up...

   yankee doodle went to town

  and riding on a pony

  he stuck a feather in his hat 

  and called it macaroni.........

the whole night he sang many songs to me...

I like yankee doodle the most....sob :'(

Just sent him off at Changi airport in the early morning 6 o'clock,with his parents ...

we reached the airport about 430am....didnt have much sleep b4 that (half an hour i think?)

sigh..... looking at his back......he entered the departure hall and slowly disappeared away from the crowd....

felt very sad but he advised me not to cry....As i promised, i did not cry...

After back to my home around 7am, i took a nap till 11 sth, when i woke up, it was raining heavily with thunders and lightnings, and i felt terribly lonely suddenly.....

it made me think of him again and again.....started to cry...so lost without him :'(

He reached HK safe and soundly, but i have no other ways to contact him other than leaving him messages online...the first call he made to me was in the afternoon 4 or 5...he called me first b4 his parents, i somehow got touched....

I feel extremely happy for him actually....coz it's not easy to get such a great opportunity to be an exchange student in NUS...I believe that this trip will surely widen his sight and broaden his mind...i do hope he can really enjoy the life over there, studying happily and playing hard....

he said....

he was once a little kid. After PLKN, he became a young boy...Now he going to HK, he told me confidently that when he is back, he will be the Real man.....

His parents and me have already planned to go HK after my exam finished, his elder sis will go along as well... haha think it will be a san fu trip :p coz his sis now carrying a big meatball ha...

ngo ngoi lei ...lei zi gei ziu gu zi gei yea...erm sai dam san ngo geh! nou lik fan dau yea... 
i am waiting to eat ju yok low xu fan with you o hehe :D

First Year....

21st August 2010...

It's finally our first year anniversary! Sob...

yet, we weren't able to celebrate it together on this special day...

However, to me, my every day has become valentine's day and "dailiversary" since the day he steps into my world... I am serious, he has never failed his part as a good boyf... 

Time flies...those days and months in the past year were not easy for us, as mostly we are separated in different states... We may be fated to meet each other after 9 years of separation (we were actually classmates of primary time)... Yet, from the first day since we have been bonded to this committed relationship, we are fated to be apart... 

Heaven mismatching us in this relationship, playing prank on us, making us suffer, but she has never put us on the verge of tears... we cherish each other most whenever we get the chance to meet, we treasure the moments we have...even when we quarrel, we are also able to handle it well in no time...so, i do think heaven is fair to us, she makes our relationship grow stronger and more stable every seconds...

i hardly see him in a few months... and i know this is quite tormenting to him, as i have the same feeling too... he always feels insecure whenever i am not with him...he worries about me much, he is scared that i couldnt take good care of myself well... He is even scared of i might abandon him one day... For me, that's a no-no...It's impossible for me to do that right now and following years or decades...I used to be a strong girl with tough heart... but now, he melts my heart, i am no longer that strong that i always relying on him then... :)

i know it's ridiculous to make promises as it's difficult to foresee how things will work out in the future... coz people say, promises are easy to make but difficult to achieve... I am not fooling myself with those unrealistic fairy tales though... he is the charming prince riding on his white horse, saving me from the sorrow, with no tears flowing and heart aching... (though sometimes i cry becoz of him haha :p)

I know myself. We seriously have faith in ourselves...

We are One....and the distance between us is -1.

I HEART HIM. Bearby ♥

为何要争吵?

争吵, 有时可以让人闹得很不愉快

我们没有吵架

你也没有对我呼喝

你苦口婆心耐心的告诉我

你的感受

而我很固执

我们只是把事情看得太重

只是太在意 太在乎

可能 我情绪上无法控制 不喜欢多解释

所以我选择静静听 不说话

可是却不入耳

不是没有分量

只是我太幼稚  太不理智

在你想把事情解决时, 我却选择逃避

逃避被束缚的感觉。

你的关心担心与担忧

我必须要好好地去理解

毕竟我们在两个在一起的时间并不多

应该要珍惜彼此

而不是一意的作自己想做的事，是我太自私。

至少现在我明白了。

我是一只笨蛋的鸟

没有笼子，我就会迷失了方向。

爱要怎么说

要如何是好？

我要的是足够的关心

少许的担心

而不是过分的担忧

是不是阴影作祟?

难道我永远都是那个阴影下的罪人吗？

同样的事，我不想在解释两遍。

爱得自由

不好吗？

我明白你的想法

可是我要你接受     我   的想法

你不能感觉到我的变化吗？

我一直以来都很乖了

可是可不可以不要像担心小孩一样来担心我？

有一天我会因为爱而疯了

当初就是因为不想在被爱情这种东西束缚

所以选择一个人

现在却又被爱情这回事弄得心痛

我少了些   自由的安全感

很爱 很爱

可是

如果担心自己的担忧会发生，

我说 我就不会在你身边了

为何我还需要受那种分隔两地的苦？

我是懂得飞回自己笼子的小鸟

Welcome back~

Yeah finally meet my papa ler!

he was working outstation for about one month

i can see my mum was missing him badly

every night sending short message to my dad secretly

they somehow use "secret code" which i dont understand

Just went to senai airport with mama and babies to pick up my pa

he looks extremely happy hehe

my elder bro also followed him to Sabah

My dad said

Sabah is quite a nice place to stay

Businessmen rule coz it's very cheap to hire workers

Workers are everywhere there, many are aboriginals.

i cant imagine how those workers can survive with that extremely low pays

it's about rm280 to 400!??

:(

Food is quite expensive but taste not great.

My bro described their fishball as the fried fish stick where we can get from the Malay stall selling fried banana.

But seafood there is much cheaper than west m'sia.

Therefore dad and bro almost had seafood meal every other days.

From what my dad told me,

i find the place has no difference from Cambodia.

Those who are rich are really wealthy 

while those who striving for life,

still lead a life of poverty.

No matter how hard they try, they are still working under others.

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Oh yeah

before my dad continued his work at Sabah

he took a leave and went to Shanghai Expo with my youngest bro last week.

Quite inspiring they said.

i wonder when i can get the chance too?

Hrm, i must start saving money!

I wanna go travelling too :) 

using my own money 

Money money money, please come to me~

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Life After Exam

Studies had been pretty hectic during the last few weeks

and what surprised me was i actually can live without facebook!

without msn

without any distractions that tempted me.

Thank to my Mr 3 for being so 'considerate'

every time complained me for ignoring him but actually

he himself busy with works,and left me aside X)

he is the real pig, the pig who sleeps more than 8hrs

yet still complaining that he is sleep-deprived

saying that wanted me to mug up at this critical period

while he working hard to earn more money for my sake = ='

Anyway

thats the only way which can make me concentrate full-bloodedly on my studies

i know i am weird.

ha~

lol i talked heaps of craps

yeah the main point was,

my exams were over and finally i am free!

Enjoying my holidays very muchie~

wahahaha..

Mr 3 came to pick me up right after my last exam done

too bad that i couldnt go sunway lagoon coz it's late 4pm

I had my first good meal with Mr 3

Ajisen ramen, salmon sashimi, ebikko.

the ramen was so-so,

ebikko was okay for me,

and the must-try was.......drum**

salmon sashimi!!!Yeah!

the taste was indescribably heavenly yummy!

we stayed at lagoon resort hotel.

the room was luxurious and fully furnished,

rm500 per night, thats hell expensive isnt it? = =' 

at night, we played cho dai di with 3's jie jie and bro-in-law

oh i wanna say thats fantastic wahaha....

though i never won a game

hrm... i watched football matches!

stupid 3 woke me up at 2am,

then we watched the match between England and.....

sorry i forgot what team was that

well I've  never thought the matches can be so exciting! XD

We also went to Genting

lol we gambled, and we lost.

There i got a lesson...

once u win, u must stop playing.

or you gonna be bankrupted after rounds of gambling.

Monday was our 10th month! :)

it seems like we've been together for 10 years though

i seriously enjoy every moment when we are by each side

i wonder what keeps us staying sweet and lovely.

He's the portion in my life. I know.

I love him :) 

                                                                             *Mixiu loviu Bearby Love

Stresssss......

I gotta admit i am getting more and more demanding.

'cause I feel i am lonely here...

I need some strength and power to motivate me on studying.

I miss my mum's cooking and chit-chatting with her and sms-ing with my pa.

Exams are coming in less than one month time.

Lonesomeness stresses me out :'(

Last week, my boy came to look for me.

This week, i hanged out with my high school buddies.

It's truly an indescribable joy!

Only with them, i can feel and know who i am.

I am just too reluctant to go back my hostel.

Every time when i step into my room,

I start to be emotional.

It's so hard to get myself back to studies.

I have got friends here.

but the feeling.......ain't right.

I feel quite nostalgic for the place where i staying now.

I am lost.

Let me go home...

Anyway

I still need to continue to study.

Study hard Choon Ling :)

Jiayou! 

Never surrender! 

Have faith.:D

Simple Life

Nini came to look for me during these 3 days.
I have been really enjoying the days when he was with me...

Planned to go Sunway Lagoon and Kuala Lumpur,
yet we never went to these places due to some constraints...
I still felt very blissful :)
Ip Man 2 and Ice Kacang Puppy Love are really fantastic, moving and impressive.
Ice skating was so fun and sweet.
Hand in hand we circling the ice field
we fell and it's so painful
he kissed all my pain away.
We had scrumptious meals.
The importance was i had those with HIM.
which was what i longed for.
Nini also shopped groceries for me.
I will never need to be starved anymore.
He is so thoughtful and caring.

I just sent him off to the bus station at Pudu Raya...
the feeling of bye-bye really struck us hard
sigh...
he was so worrying that he wanna assure me board the bus safely,
then only he went to take the bus which going to Bukit Jalil...
The first second when he was out of my sight
i started to missing him dy.
i feel i am lost without him...
right after i reached my hostel,
i felt every thing is so strange to me.
the building, the corridor, the room.
feel like to cry.
i know, i am still not getting to the life here.

He is in the bus, sleeping right now.


Though walking is torturing.
i just enjoy walking together with him.
we cherish.

Today is mother's day...
sobsob...
Now i am missing my mother so much too.

nini said he will be coming to sunway again in june with his papa mama.
Right on the day i finish my last exam.
Then we will go playing water.
and going back together with them :)
I am so so happy now.

 Bearby ♥ Treny

I should do something!

Sigh...
Who am I?
I feel I am an Alien.
or maybe a chimp?
I am not good at language.
Especially Malay.
i just learned quite many new malay words today.
Fever= demam
sore throat= sakit tekak
flu= selesema
vomit= muntah
.
.
.
.
These are simple words.
Even primary one students also know what they are.
I need to catch up on that.

Must improve my Malay level
and of course
my English, Hokkien, Teowchew proficiencies
sad......

Lucky we're in love in every way

I thank god that i have met you.
Making my life happier and easier.
so blissful.
I am a lucky girl.

After listened to my friend's love story,
some thoughts crossed my mind
i was afraid that i might have given you a hard time
but the way you told me
i feel your sincerity
You are unique!

Distance of our love = -1.

[1:24:35 AM] Nini Ooi: 给我你的爱 让我陪着你去未来

Happy 8 months my love!
it's our 244th day of love...
Even we are physically far away from each other
our soul and mind never fall apart.
because...
we are ONE.

too much to say
keep it short
Thanks for your love
ＩLOVE EUU!!!

You are my lover
my soul mate
my friend
my clown
my family
my...
.
.
.

my every thing.
my love.

Mungkin Nanti

lol~ oh my gosh!!!
i am so delighted now!!!
it's hard to hold back my feeling hoho
I never knew listening to a Malay song
can be such an enjoyment~
i listen to "Mungkin Nanti" for the umpteenth time
am so crazy and not getting fed up!

This is the first Malay song i have ever listened to :D
So meaningful...haha

Sahaja ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau cuba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
[Mmm] Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau cuba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau cuba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kelmarin saat semua di sini

Tak usah kau tanya kembali
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

haha thanks to Mr Brightness for explaining the meaning of this song.
yo i am still in the mode of "mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi"
hehe~

I am loving it!!!

Understanding and kindness, that are all we ask for.

please....i beg you, be kind to us...
you were born to be with us
please dont make us in such a disastrous state.
do you know?
your every act has left significant wound on us.
so hopeless, so disappointed, so lifeless...
please, turn yourself a new leave.
for your sake, and for us.
for a better tomorrow.

Gee!

It's time to take a break!
Have been here for a month...
and finally i will be home in 24 hours.
I can't hide my excitement anyway!
Hooray~

Pharmacy life has been so challenging and compact
I am nearly suffocating.
Heaps suffering from those reports, assignments, assessments, tests...
How i wish i could run away...
I know it's impossible for me lol~
I will make every endeavor to achieve my passion and aim!!!
Life is tough, but i believe that once i get it through,
simple life is just not too far from me!
Seriously i don't wanna waste my parents' single earnings...
they work so hard
supporting my studies, my life...
they are great...
i should discipline myself...
should make my every second to be meaningful...
Parents have been so concerned about my studies....
i should do them proud
Choon Ling must jiayou k?!!!
what have u promised to papa mama?
jiayou k!!! love u!

Omg, my heart is filled with love right now...
feel like to hug my papa and my mama like very last time i did...
now i don't ler, maybe because i have grown up....
feel embarrassed and weird haha...
somemore parents are so busy working....haiz...
i miss those time when papa brought my whole family
going out every friday and weekends...
having good food, shopping, sight-seeing, adventuring....
forcing me to eat those spicy stuff which i hate so much...
teaching me alot alot chemistry stuffs
telling me about the wonder world...
and sometimes bomb-bomb his talents...
i always think my papa is the greatest papa in the world....
so splendid....though he's strict to me...
and i always think my mama is the best mama, so capable....
though she didn't receive much education.....
they teach me how to be a good person....
i miss them so much right now....
this time, i will be obedient, staying at home and studying....
will spend more time at home....
i know my parents have been so sad, so mad
and so worrying about me last time,
as i went out almost every day....
i am regretful now....

Midsem break is not time for having fun though....
coz the week after, i will be having 2 tests, 1 assignment and 1 report to be submitted...
really really must jiayou!
can't waste so much time on unnecessary thingies...
must get them all done before next friday!
Hey Lynne, if u want to go sg next friday, u must complete all ur workloads first!
if not, u cannot go! ok?!!!

男人，有感

最近
很轰动的梁智强外遇事件
让我觉得
世上没有好男人。
过去几个星期
好几个女受害者都出来指正他
真的好贱!what a sleazebag!!!
在这之前，都没有人敢说出一句
对他的名誉地位极度有害的口供
事情一扑光
大家心目中的梁导演
变成了烂人
有够恶心的。
还有他老婆
可怜到不行
还可以原谅他
我想，要不是因为孩子
她应该会和他离婚吧！
还是，她就那么的爱他？！

女人啊
即使自己有多大的本事，
受苦受罪时，却不吭一声。
女人都是受害者。



刚刚看了朋友部落格的帖子。
真是的，
世界上贱男人真多！
转个贴吧...

这个帖子的故 事很长，

有一天楼主的老公来接她，她想吃公司楼下的栗子，
老公很反常地拒绝

她以为他老公害羞还是怎样，
回家 的时候
去上厕所时不小心看到老公和其他女人聊天的记录。

找机会开到老公和第三者的聊天记录，

头一句就是那女 人说：
我也要吃栗子！还要吃你！

看完了长篇的聊天情史，她忍不住眼泪，哭得要死，
但还是决定不要说

半 夜的时候电话来找老公，往常她都会相信那是客户，
可是这次她很坚决地去偷听，
老公回到房间她终于哭着问，谁是第三者

事 情曝光后，

第三者是老公以前追不到的一个女孩子

她老公很爱她，所以一直求她，她差一点原谅他

这 段期间的故事

楼主的内心挣扎写得很贴切

是女人都会咬紧牙根看..

有 一天第三者冲来家里很可怜的说，她怀孕了

虽然她老公决定让她打掉，但这一切都没有用，
楼主彻底崩溃，却很理智，
她说爱情需要的是尊 严。

楼主最后和她的老公离婚了。

突然想起过去
Edison事件
那是个肮脏的历史。

下一站幸福中
也有极似现实生活的一幕，
任光晞他心中的天使爸爸，
原来是个肮脏龌龊，
没胆没度量的臭男人。



男人啊！
有钱有权
使坏又使贱
样样来。
即使是好男人，
也会有ID 的想法。
想出轨，
除非心魔一但能被克服，
他才能够好好的坚守自己的原则岗位。

还有
那种太善于投机取巧的男人
用在事业心上，是没问题的
但如果，是用在如何骗自己的老婆或女朋友
还是远离点吧。
离开，会是一种幸福。

我很清楚，
我是属于能够忍气吞声的女人。
但，忍耐也有限度。
不吭声不代表不在乎不介意或看开了
而是，相信自己的他，给他反省的机会。
别滥用女人给的机会。
那是无价的可贵。
我想女人，都是这样的。


男人和女人，
就像 Mars 和 Venus
Venus 在拉丁文里意味着 女人渴望得到真正的爱。
而男人的生命 就像一场战争。
爱与战，找个平衡点吧。

Say 'Good Night' to your loved ones...

Recently read some meaningful forward-messages ppl posted on Facebook.
I was strongly impressed by one
of which saying

Don't forget to greet someone you love with the words "晚安" before sleeping.

There is a warm meaning behind this simple phrase!
"晚安" Wan-an (good night~)
is actually obtained from the first alphabet in the chinese "han yu pin yin" of
Wo Ai Ni Ai Ni "我爱你，爱你" ( i love you, love you! )~

Gosh, amazed right?
at least i am lol~ :p

So, start saying Good Night to everyone you love b4 u sleep yea!
not only to your lover, but your family and friends as well!

lol.
Love for everyone, but with different meanings!

Rock-A-Bye Baby

Rock a bye baby on the treetop,
When the wind blows the cradle will rock,
When the bough breaks the cradle will fall,
And down will come baby, cradle and all.

This is the lullaby nini always sings to me before i sleep...

But today, my friend, whom i call Potato Chin,
told me that the baby died in the end
as the cradle fell down...
Suddenly i felt so down coz i just realized this lullaby was a sad one.
Sigh...

I asked nini did the baby really die.
He didn't answer me.
But he was actually searching the history behind this lullaby...

My first response was,
omg u are so great sobsob!

This lullaby was actually extracted from a poem.
Here the other 2 parts of the poem.

The baby is drowsing cozy and fair,
Mother sits near in her rocking chair,
Forward and back the cradle she swings,
And though baby sleeps he hears what she sings.

From the high rooftops down to the sea,
No ones' as dear as baby to me,
Wee little fingers, eyes wide and bright,
Now sound asleep until morning light.

* Long long time ago,
there was a prince,
when he was still a baby,
his mother swung the cradle to make him asleep....
Then, the poet saw this scene and wrote this poem...
lol i am so happy now~~~!

He said this was such a warm lullaby~
So sweet!
My friend was lame =="
Herm!

我不要

我很难过。
可不可以，不要那样子对我？
我知道你很难过
难道我不吗？
是我的错
我不该随便就答应朋友出去。
我该学会拒绝
学会说不
不让你生气担心难过。。。
请不要用质问我的方式
我经不起那样的痛
我心痛
心痛到哭了
请不要将那怀疑的阴影
放在我的身上。。。
那对我太残忍
我是个懂得分轻重的女生。。。


　

Soni narhhh...

It supposed to be a very good morning
N my purpose of writing this blog was actually
to tell it's our 7th month today!
'm so touched after reading what you wrote...
I' m getting to understand you more deeply from there
though we are now some distance apart...


Eventually i ruined our happy and sweet morning...
Soni....
Sigh, i know you are still angry with me...
What if i never said a word
would u still be angry?
I am in my difficult situation
i need u to understand me big-heartedly...
i know u do,
and u do give me lotsa freedom
becoz u trust me.
i am sorry to let u worry...

Be reassured my love...
I won't allow things to go beyond the boundaries.



Now, i am drawing a big big circle at the dark corner of my room
*so desperate and sobbing... T____T
which can only accommodate you and me.
* i love nobody nobody but you!
How bearable you are to see your baby crying.......


I want you to smile k my sweetheart
lai~ gimme a big broad smile k???
k??
k?
OK~!!! =D
muackss! good baby's nini~

のだめカンタービレ

Recently 'm so in love with the Japanese drama
'Nodame Cantabile'
[ のだめカンタービレ。交響情人夢 ]


It's a comical yet touching drama series
that u can never fail to watch it.
*hrmph, at least it's to me =) *
some scenes are kinda lame
but, i love it to the max.
coz for ages i havent been watching
such an exaggerating drama that
can make me laugh all the way long.



I know this drama was broadcasted on tv show b4,
as in 2006?
*duh... i was still 18 that time!
with only 11 episodes =(
Originally it's a series of manga.


The S Orchestra,
with its first onstage-performance
Beethoven's Symphony No.7


Shinichi Chiaki (千秋真一)


Megumi Noda or "Nodame" (野田惠)

A little ordinary me...

Another half an hour gonna be my day.
I am so down...
T____T

This is the 2nd year i staying at here, not going back my hometown.
Even though last year i had friends celebrated for me...
instead, i felt happier if i was at home.

It doesn't matter if i won't get one or more cakes.
At least, i can hear mama says
" 哇...有人生日了叻~
读书要加油懂吗？"
then "等下帮我洗脸和按摩蛤"
papa says "读书要读好来啊，工作辛苦啊，钱不要乱花啊..."
my sis will say " eh~ 姐姐，你今天生日啊?hehehe
(*with a shy shy tone) 祝你生日快乐啦~"
my didi definately will say," 哇~你看我又比你高了叻，
以前你不是很高的咩？现在比我矮了呼呼~"
And my babies will tell me "大姑~生 '子' 快乐~"

I miss my home so badly...
missing you too nini...

I feel lonely.
I know my mama missing me.
Yet she insists not to let me go home.
She wants me to study.
She doesn't want me to go out on my birthday.
My tears are dangling...

Thinking of Michael Buble's song
"Home"
sigh...

一个人的生日，很难过。
生日快乐...我对自己说...

Argh....

The morning of that day i left to Jb, no water supplies.
suay...

Today i came back Kl, i met heartless bus company.
I took 1pm bus, supposed to reach Pudu raya by 5pm.
The bus company kept dragging the departure time,
to fill more passengers.
When the bus finally set off,
it went to the nearest petrol station to check the tyres etc.Then, continued the journey.
After 40mins, the bus slowed down and stopped by the roadside.
It was just 68km away from Jb.
15mins later, we were informed that the aircond belt was broken!
We all got off from the bus and waiting under hot sun.
The man said, we gotta wait for 1 hour for someone to come helping us.
very suay ar.....

While waiting, i made 3 new friends.
haha...


After an hour........
One and a half hour........
One bus stopped by, only 10 persons were allowed to sit that bus.
argh.

2 hours.....

Never thought this would actually happen on us.
We thought this kinda situation only occurred in the drama what the hell...

3 hours.....
The remaining was still waiting but no one spoke their mind.
I was wondering and was really getting so impatient that i went to see the person-in-charge.
Then he told me to wait for another 30mins.
Hell i was really angry and voiced out!
blaming them for the failure of their company.
Sh*t.

Then, another bus finally stopped and this time only 6 passengers could get onto the bus.

My friend started waving her hands
after 20mins a kindhearted bus driver stopped his bus
and let all of us board.
He didnt charge us a penny!

I reached Kl almost 8pm lor argh...
What a day!
Sh*t