hey hey 2010!

Finally we came to the end of year 2009.
The most important was, it's my mama's birthday today. haha XD

2009 was a turning point of my life and life is still going on.

My first year of pharmacy life I didnt do well in the last sem. Yet i am still in the run of becoming a pharmacist. I am blessed. I am thankful to my parents for supporting me during my ups and downs. I will do you proud.
Jia You Choon Ling!

Nixon Ooi. Thanks for giving me so much love, very inexpressible.

Erm...things happened this year. Whatever that passed are past.

Looking forward to the year ahead especially my pharmacy 2nd year.

It will be more challenging. I am ready.

Ganbatte!

The clock is pointing at 12 sharp! it's 1.1.10 Happy New Year~!

Starting from today, i gotta work. No more dating with him i am so sien....

Sien narh~

but, i am still enjoying my life.

Time Out!!!

Woohoo~ Another 18 hours nini is gonna finish his last paper and it's time for us going to have some fun! Yeah~!

Seriously i feel it will be tiring for nini to come to look for me at night right after he comes back from S'pore. But mischievous him wouldnt listen to me coz i know he longs to see me whoops XD
Have been suffering from lovesickness for months, be patient hey...

Initially decided to get a job, but i didnt go for any work interview. Try to get one in Jan.
Why? Coz Dec is mainly for dating.

I know, love is not a bread. He made me feel that i was selfish as i didnt think about his sake at first. I never thought of we arent getting much time to be together as he has only one month break. After that his uni reopens, more stress is coming over. Furthermore, i will not be around in JB starting from the end of Feb. He will be leaving to HongKong in July/ Aug. And always he feels insecure if i am not around, he cares and worries about me as if i were a baby =) Therefore, it's really important for us spending some time with each other, to know each other well and to spice up our relationship so that it can be stabilized. Ha, i do feel ours is really stable now though.


Nini says maybe tomorrow we gonna catch a late night movie, yea we haven't seen 2012 yet. The next day he wanna bring me to a scrumptious sushi buffet at 创作寿司 as he promised last time. Feeling happy. Yet it sure will be expensive, don't want him to spend too much, perhaps we can go for other cheaper meal? bite XD He always says we must think twice before we spend, ermm i must be wise when using money since i havent got any job. Or later my nose becomes bigger and bigger. I don't wanna be a big spender =(

Quite upsetting coz i couldnt attend his sis's MOE wedding (haha) on this coming sunday. If i went there, i would be sitting alone with other ppl. Actually it's not a problem for me. But i know he is afraid me of finding myself lonely and awkward there, so i prefer not to go. Nini must enjoy through the night yea ^^ congratz to da jie XD hoho

Zoo!

Sentosa!

Genting!

KL!

Gathering with primary mates!

Christmas!

Dating!

Are awaiting me to accomplish together with lovely jaundiced-guinea pig whoops =p

巧合

给妈妈看照片的那天。
妈妈兴奋地说: 这真的是太巧了~！
怎么我们家姓吴的都被这个姓牵着了？
还来不及反应，妈妈就pili pala了。
whoops~!hey 这真的是很巧了也~


前几天在玩着上瘾的cafe world时，偶然听到坏小弟对笨妹妹说的话。
我弟说: 哇~很巧hor...你看！
我们爸爸姓吴的跟姓 黄 的妈妈结婚。
gor gor跟姓 黄 的大嫂结婚。
然后二哥叻，女朋友姓 黄 。
现在了你看姐姐(我啦)， 找来一个姓 黄 的男朋友。
惨了咯。。。我们以后该不会又一样会找到姓黄的吧？
我妹就说是咯hor...zuomok 会酱的？(反应很迟钝真的，不顶 )
然后叻，我弟就说:
不行, 我们要不一样！

我们要换 COLOUR ~
找姓 陈 的~~~

哈哈哈。。。。。。

（披着兔皮的狼）

xoxo

Fettuccine di amore

simple and appetizing.

This was the first time in my life i cooked pasta! And yes it reminded me of the addictive Cafe World gee! ...Narh not really i cooked hey hey. I was chefz liang liang's most helpful assistant and was in charge of finishing off the pasta. We didn't mess up the kitchen =) Too bad his stupid finger was stinging from the hot pot =( xoxo. Though our pasta was just a simple fettuccine with marinated tomato paste and shredded cheese, it's really delicious. Yummy~

Miss Italiannies' pasta........

记忆 || 甜甜的

那天回程的路上。。。

好几个小时。因为你，总觉得时间不够漫长。

需要更多的24/7。因为你我都不舍。。。

我们聊起了从前。
我哗啦啦的说了好多好多我以前所有的回忆。。。
回忆，总是美好的。
可我没发现，其实我遗失了些什么。
你在一旁，听着，说着，笑着。
隐约的开始感觉你有些闷闷不乐了。
我问，是不是听我说老故事好无聊呢？那我不说了好吗？
你静静地，看着我，一脸无辜的表情。。。
你说，不是的。。。因为，你快乐的回忆里没有我。


几秒内我说不出话。。。
心里酸酸的。有点痛。
然后我说，对啊，你好像都没有在里面。
没关系，现在开始。不是，应该是从你出现后的那时开始。
你在我的记忆中成长，然后所有都变成我美丽的现在式记忆与回忆。。。




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先给妮妮一个爱的鼓励！啪啪啪~

发现。。。
在一起短短的两个月里，你变了也。
变成一个是我喜欢的个性。成长了不少。
嗯！我就是喜欢。
开始时觉得有点孩子气(你的大男人主义在作祟)的你，我很不嗒捍。
慢慢的，你变的比较成熟稳重了。谢谢你的信任与包容。
我自在许多。
喜欢自由独立做事的感觉。。。
不过，偶尔窝窝在怀里像小孩一样，也好不错。。。


一段感情里的男女主角，可以同时是大人，同时是小孩，也可以是大人和小孩。
任何一方都能领导任何一方。没有绝对的一方。
信任与包容，这两个元素，不能缺。
多少遍我爱你说了，也只是感情里的调剂品。
没有信任没有包容，感情不过只是一个空的躯壳。
因为它们，现在的我们，感觉到了真正的爱之安全感。


不喜欢太甜言蜜语，但是偶尔听一听也不伤耳，不然你就要说我笨都不懂得情趣。
很纳闷哈~
你说，你把我锁在心里的抽屉。没有人有这把钥匙开启。没人进得去，我也出不来。
想我的时候，把我拿出来。
所以，你把想念的心放在桌上，时时刻刻都想念，感觉我在你身边。
很甜。。。
星星满了吗？

知道你每次都被打，我很野蛮很凶悍。

然后你都不吭一声，很甘愿。

你却还会对我笑，你好可爱。

想了想，以后都不打你了，我收手。

男生都不喜欢也不能接受被女生刮巴掌，我可以明白。

不过我懂，你会想念被我打的日子。

再痛，你还是舍得忍痛。

Best days with you

Yeah!!! Went to S'pore during last few days. Those days spending together with my nini were sweet and happy~ Though nini had an exam on the next day, he still accompanied me 24 hourly. Thank nini for bringing me around there, eating, playing and shopping around.

Nini should be stunned by his ben dan hyperactive baby who is an extreme chocoholic. First time going to NUS and it's truly amazed me. Feel like i am a katak in the tempurung (should be correct right this sentence). How i wished i were a NUS student sigh! I am not that brilliant neway sigh. Full respect to those who are studying in NUS, you all are so geng. Planned to go to Zoo but in the end we called off becoz of d heavy downpour haiz =( And Yubin you all were really punctual!!! Be on time or you gonna treat all of us a meal since u got d NETS card. It's tiring but we were so enjoying the every moment we shared together.



Looking forwards to this coming blissful December =)

Lost in love's embrace

I fall into your embrace

Can't help.

Years to go, being apart

You said don't let this love fade away

have faith and never run out of it

And i said,

When i fall in love, it'll be forever

We know.

it's not a fatuous love

We are not making an easy promise

not making a promise either

it's a love with passion and commitment

and your patience

complete our love.

Sometimes, I dont have to say a word

and you seem to know

whatever mood i am going through
You're truly understanding and loving

Once i am lost

you are always everywhere for me and with me

lighten me up

and tell me don't be fearful.

that's why...

I feel you near me even when we are apart

我们被祝福围绕着。。。

幸福的是，有你爱我。

笑，是因为想起了你。

哭，是因为太想念你。

那是因为，你给的爱，慢慢的溢出来。

把心里原有的恢恢的空，满满的填上了我们的颜色。

远距离，不是我们的距离。

我们之间，没有分界线。

时间可以证明。

Buffering ............................100%

在一起后的每一天，没有不想你的一刻。

每天都在期待。

每天的感觉，都不一样。

得了H1N0 新型相思病病毒。

amour retrovirus inhibitor 救不了我。

我根本就不想好起来。

打从心底暖暖的~

先给妮妮道个歉索理哈~不管~！


这是一个新的开始吧。

今年夏的五月天。。。我遇见了你。
两个人开始聊得很投契。是纯纯的朋友。
也有将近八年半完全没有联络了吧。
怪。我们竟然可以聊那么多。
而且，那也是我第一次跟朋友聊得那么疯狂。
疯狂得facebook上的wall comment都有八十多个吧？然后每个都满满的，要按read more才读得完一个comment。

我们，是小学时代的同学。
那时的你。我记得，常常上台演讲，成绩好的不行，是巡查员，很厉害。
记忆力超好。被你吓着了。因为
我对以前小学时的记忆，几乎都没有了。
你说，你每次都坐在我后面的位子，我们有常说话。
可你说我很安静，每次都一个人静静的坐着，静静的等，那我怎么可能会常和你说话呢？
怪。哈~
你说，我那时给了你一颗糖果。你还有点小感动！哈~可我真的不记得。

什么时候开始，你拼命叫我baby。
我当时觉得很不自在，干嘛那样叫我，我很不喜欢。
我越是不喜欢，你越是爱baby baby的叫我。所以我就算了，你喜欢就好，不想计较。
然后你说，因为我长得很像小孩子，又爱喝牛奶，所以你才这样叫我。
okay, 接受。然后我就叫你daddy。很幼齿。
什么时候开始，你说你不相信男女之间只有纯友谊。
你问我。我说为什么会没有呢？
我和很多朋友，都是好朋友。像我和你一样，是很好很多话的好朋友。

第一次见面，就一伙儿去打羽球。
你说，反正我都放假了，你也在放假中，没事就一起出去玩玩，消磨时间。
然后你说不如就当是Thx God it's Friday 吧。我吓着了。
不过你说陪朋友出去有何不行呢，所以我okay。
然后整个假期，几乎除了跟老板秘书miki出去，就是跟你出去了。
然后不懂为什么，你一直都对我很好。
每天我都要浪费口水说谢谢，不过我真得觉得不好意思，麻烦你了。

也不懂什么时候开始，开始有些讨厌你这个人。
觉得自己为什么和你做朋友，做到那么辛苦那么压力。我不明白。
有时很不想理你。因为跟你聊天，可以聊到很不开心。为什么会这样？
可是我不懂为什么，心里很害怕。
害怕会因为一些不开心的事情，而失去你这个很要好的朋友。

太多，无法言尽。

几个月过去了。。。后来我终于明白了。
发现原来你一直都很努力的去维持着所谓的单纯友情。
然后你几乎是被我弄到没有力气去坚持了。
知道你经常会被我弄得很难过。请容许我的神经太粗旷。
被你做的一些事，感动了。原来你一直都在我身边。

谢谢你给我的爱一天比一天的多。
打从心底，暖暖的。。。

树的过去

人说。爱情不能做比较。很对，没有错。


可是，没有人是中立的。因为每个人对每件事，都会有他个人的一套想法，这个原有的想法会持续，直到某个足以改变他本来那套想法的人或事出现，无形中就会做了点比较。人开始就会从原点偏折，趋向他所向往的。爱情，也不过如此。


无法定义爱情。它没有一定的形式。

可是，情侣间相处的方式，几乎都是一样的。我是这样觉得。小小的羡慕，可是我却很满足当时自己的恋爱方式。曾经，我有一段很截然不同的爱情。它是一个，没有人可以想象的爱情。我和他，曾经是一对，可是在别人眼里，我们好像是两个自由的人。。。很少或几乎没有贴在身边。我不曾埋怨过，因为我知道自己是个不受约束的女生，他是个爱好自由的男生。。可是有时心里总有些矛盾，希望他可以给我一点他的时间。一个四年的感情，中间远距离分开了三年，每年的年尾我一直都会一个人等他回来，等他找我出去。为什么这样子？他很忙，他的时间不曾属于我一个人的，想见他，比任何世上的每件事都来的辛苦，只有他真的有空时，才能在几个月里见他几次，所以彼此都很珍惜。我就是那么愿意的去等，有时觉得自己很笨，没有理由，那是因为曾经我很爱他，还觉得自己真得很幸福。别人总是问，你们还有在一起的吗？要不然就是说，为什么不分手，如果我是你，早就跟他分了，找别的男生了。也有人这么说，我看你都不敢说分手，你都不能没有他。我当时，只想回应，爱情是两个人的事，这是我们的方式，不喜欢别人来干涉，我笨，可我不介意，你们别管我。太多，没有办法全部说尽。。你们不会懂。只能说，我曾经是个很幼稚的女生，很爱哭，很忧郁，没有安全感，很安静自闭。。。可是当时当他一个人去到澳洲后，他给我的爱，让我们彼此间不会因为有距离而生疏，不会没有信任，不会有恐惧感，那曾经是个非常稳定的爱情。我和他，从这里成长了许多，从孩子气闹别扭到两个都能成熟的思考，那是一个独立自主的爱。不曾后悔过。你们不懂。一个人在这里等的人不只是我，其实他也一样。

他说，我是个好女孩，他很对不起，不能给我快乐。
他说，他知道，会有比他更好的人，能让我得到更多的幸福。
其实，他在作比较。
他要我找到自己的理想，家人学业爱情都能平衡。
满满的都是感激。

他说，我说过，就算我们分开了，我们还会是好朋友。
现在，我们还是。。。好朋友。

'm back~!

Finally..........

Struggling for 2 weeks, and i actually messed up my exams. Regretful. I know my 2 sem results will have a significant difference. No point to look back, better move on... I really hope that i still can continue my 2nd year despite my sem2 poor results and grab the chance for SEP. Pray hard!

hrm....back to d point. I am back! Missing my family so much, and of coz u my nini. Finally i can eat my mama's cooking, play with my 3 little BABYs, meet my nini and friends. Great!

D first nite i reached jb, my mama told me lotsa stories happened during d time i wasnt here. Some are quite impressive lar, like, d real yet incredible experience with d 'bro' and how my sista saved her XD really funny; my mama struck merely rm42 in a totopot though she bought d WRONG number haha. After i reached home, my papa started his stories pula. My papa didnt change much lar aiyo but his temper changed abit, sometimes quite agressive sometimes quite sentimental haha. Think my papa really needs a listener like me coz he knows i wont oppose him. My parents are now middleaged, will be quite luo so sometimes, but i do like them doing so, as i feel we are still very close though we havent met for months. They will be going honeymoon again during end of Nov. and all d responsibilities are on me when they are not around ler....Hope my papa this time can buy some really useful stuff haha. Or else my mama gonna backstab my papa when he is not around ler haha...getting used to this XD

Welcome Jenny! her name is given by my papa with no reason. d dog looked like a hushpuppy and was from my papa's friend, den my papa gave it to my sista. i know my papa not a good heart he has purpose one, like that he neednt to take care of jenny, den my sista kena. haha. You're really nottie feel like to kick u off coz you're too little, of coz i wont torture u larr...next time better dont bite my shoes, i let u off this time coz u're cute. Wey, bebe, train it be a good dog pls...later papa really chops it into 2 lor....

At 9, i met with my nini, lesi, yubin, kj, and guang. Hanging out till late nite and i was actually feeling sorry, sigh, coz i was supposed to be staying at home with my family. we met at d mamak. d nite was quite cold, so me and my nini ordered a kambing soup, and guess what we saw before we tucked in? Walao! can u imagine d little geli whitish trashworm moving slowly on d plate under the bowl? i really couldnt imagine what if i ordered a roti plata and it's put on that plate! shit, make my stomach upset! Just b4 nini wanna send me back, my sis-in-law and little bro called me... they said, there's a Tradition that a bf of a girl must buy 煮炒for her family so that they can last long (wat d tut, is this really happening in batu pahat?i dont believe lar sisinlaw...). And my nini was really stupid...i felt bad seriously. Dont want you treat them too nice, later they bully you haha.

D second day was family day woohoo! i went to 四湾岛 with my family! had a scrumptious seafood meal with my family and uncles aunties. My papa went there coz he has an important task. he is asked to build a 山水, and heard from my dad that d uncle got the government's approval for opening a new branch of seafood village and 8level-hotel nearby d seashore. My dad couldnt help much coz he has a dam construction in indonesia which is almost 2 singapore islands that big. Time passes, things have changed here, i still can remember when i was still in primary, i came to here with my family, and now after 10 years... trying to find back those memories we had, feeling blissful enough. My parents kept asking if we could remember haha. So sweet! Was a tiring day and really tanned by d sun.

Narh...it's monday today and d 3rd day in jb. haha... gotta feeling of gotong royong (gotong royong is house-cleaning rite?) tomorrow. Today, d 1st thg to do is finding work (i want a clinic or pharmacy short term work pls! but why no one wanna hire ppl?), den bring my sis-in-law for an injection and get my hair trimmed.tata =)

Nice to meet you my Lynne

omg, i couldnt believe that i am actually blogging now, and this is my very first post. Exam is in 4 days yet i am doing sth else...Sigh... Am motivated to start blogging, but! Where is my study mood? its still not switched on? Motivation please come back to me k?

hrm... Feel like to write stories abt myself, my past and current life.

Haha yea this is still not a good time yet, coz i still gotta continue my studies neway. Studies always come first. Promise to do my parents proud. and pursuing my aim- my pharmacy life and serving the public! Missing my family right now, i swear i will try my very best till the last second, will never give up!

Ganbatte!