22nd month

hrm yea... we are together for 22 months ♥

It has always been an extremely stable relationship

Always i am the one who gets emotional over everything easily

while he is always the one cheering me up

Thanks to him for bearing with my bad temper...

Anyway, i am his sassy girlfriend.
It is his obligation to take care of my rest of life.

* dont care herm! :p*

♥ Stand by me ♥

Jars of love

Finally done with all exam papers and back to my home! had been so freakingly stressed for the past two months. hopefully every thing goes smoothly as i wish  *praying hard*... 

Yesterday was Fathers Day. Parents were working restlessly from day to night though it was Sunday. Siblings were waiting them to come back for dinner. It was almost 9pm. Papa did not know it was fathers day afterall... He is too busy to think about other trivial things. He was surprised when i took out the cake :D We did not have a lavish restaurant treat but just a simple fish head steamboat which is my dad's favorite. and yea, papa treated us beer! haha...i had a binge drinking but not drunk, but my youngest bro kept sweating and feeling dizzy after his first sip haha... 

Though i have a strict father, he is lovely enough in his own way... His parenting methods might not be acceptable for some ppl. My friends found my father's ways of teaching were too iron-fisted but to me, he guided my life with good impacts. He is the only leader of household, taking care of us together with mama. he is like a superman, he can handle every big and small matter like just a piece of cake. he likes to nag us unreasonably and sometimes it is really annoying that we all really get frustrated. I remembered when i was small, i was quite envious of others whose fathers got everything for them as they asked. My dad, he dotes on me but he never pampers me with materialistic stuffs including money. Somehow i felt it was unfair: why others' fathers could fulfill their children's desires and wants, but it did not happen on me? Everything he gave only for the first time, if i wanted it for the second time, i gotta obtain it by my own means and abilities. Therefore, i cherish every little thing he grants me. I know, whatever he does is for our sake and goodness. so i never rebel my dad's intentions. if others use ATM to describe their fathers, i would say my dad is rather an 'encyclopedia'. Whenever i reminiscing my childhood, i feel so blissful for having such a great papa, and of coz my mama. it has been years papa is busy with his works. Time marks my dad with wrinkles and white hair. Together we went through all ups and downs. he is so strong, never simply let his tears shed. yet I saw dad's tears fell off once before, lying on mama's shoulder..such memory can never be erased. Words cant be used to describe my feeling towards my parents. they are just so special to me. and yea, there are two important men in my life, my papa and my boyf. They are the only guys i can trust and rely on. 

Sigh, i don't like comfortable stage. It is too stable but yea it can be so disheartening too. I know we have to get through this as part of a relationship process. I do not expect surprise or romance from him. What i want him to do for me is LISTEN. yea i need to learn to listen too. 

siblings :)

My papa and mama.... very old liao....

恨嫁人妻

Okay as the title of this post stated. thanks to Min Min Hoi who described me with this funny term "恨嫁".

Recently i have been so obsessed with cooking. Always thought i DID NOT know to cook in the past, but actually, i CAN cook! It is just whether i have the will to do it or not and wow never knew that i can cook well (*a herm... at least my cooking is edible *arrhh so proud of myself, 可以进厨房也可以上大堂,可以嫁了). I enjoy cooking coz I am really fed up with d outside food which is usually too salty, too oily, and i dislike fried and spicy stuffs. yea my appetite is getting smaller and little compared to before. So it's like putting me on the verge of losing weight..No way!!! i don't wanna lose any more weight, i am still 5kg behind of my target! T__T

No msg, little oil or none, little salt added or none. My mum's cooking style... I am so my mum....haha....

Okay these are my cooking Hx:
Very easy to make.

Mixed veggie salad

Fruit & veggie salad

Appleberry yoghurt

Spaghetti with ham & mushroom

Bakuteh

Miso wanton noodles

Energy Booster

Yoghurette chicken cutlet spaghetti

Chicken soup

Lamb chop

Mee hun kueh

朋友

朋友，你是我的朋友吗？

我不懂，对你而言是不是？

至少我把你当成是我的朋友，所以我相信你，对你从不质疑。不管你是谁，我都信任你朋友。可是朋友，你怎么能用你可怕的言语，在我不知情的情况下来伤害我？我总是被蒙在鼓里，然后从第二第三第四者听说，又或者，还有很多事我完全还不知道？你知道那种从别人口中听说的痛？难道交朋友是来被重伤的？我不明白。

一次又一次的，被伤害，心痛得在淌血，可我却没有憎恨过你朋友，甚至我还是一样的崇拜你或觉得你很好，觉得你是把我当朋友的。在一起时你可以把我拥入怀里拉着我开开心心的聊天，关心我，让我觉得很温暖有朋友真好。然而我不在时却又可以用言语来伤我。我想知道，你是以什么心态来说一个把你当朋友的朋友的不是。难道你不觉得你说的话可以让我很伤？

多少次了，不同的话从同个人口中说出 。累积。我痛得哭了好几回，可我从来对你没防备。是我太傻了，还是我太善良，太容易原谅你？每次都告诉自己没事的。

我在乎的是你朋友，而不是那些伤我的话。

我也想知道，陌生人，你认识我吗？那你从别人口中认识我，你觉得，那个我是所谓的我吗？你觉得你在听时，被伤害的我不痛没感觉吗？

我很难过，朋友，你懂吗？ 

我不应该太相信朋友。

家人总是要我别太相信朋友，因为朋友未必真心。在面前和背后可能不同。可我总是不在意。可是现在，我很害怕了。我不想再难过了。我该有戒心。可我觉得自己还没到那个能好好分辨真心和假意朋友的等级。我该学着了。

朋友，请不要因为我的安静和不会说话而把我当无所谓般地继续重伤，又或者任由你们决定我的人格。难道，性格本来就安静有错吗？

不了解我，请不要先说伤我的话。也别以为你够了解我了，所以你可以伤害我。

朋友，请不要把我的真心当成客套和虚伪，因为我不是。是因为我太愚蠢了没有防备而你却太有机心？请教教我那些我爸爸妈妈没教会我的事，因为他们没教我如何要有机心的对一个人。

写到这里，对于这样的朋友，我还是没有一点憎恨的感觉，我还是会原谅你。可我不希望会再知道这样的事。只是身心很难过。我没做错什么，也不会为了你对我的评论或伤害作任何解释。只因你不够了解我。

People who know you well don't need you to explain. people who not knowing you don't care what you have explained.

 

Holiday Mood

 Hrm....recently i was really into this Taiwanese drama series called 'The Fierce Wife'. I finished 23 episodes in 3 days O.o lol i was really crazy about it, especially the male lead Lan Tian Wei, damn charming :3

It talked about how a happy and blissful family could be ruined by the involvement of a third party.

But it's not that superficial as you think it's like other tw drama series. 

It's encouraging with life's hints telling you never be afraid to go for your aims (even if you're simply a housewife *hrm, we girls should not rely too much on guys, must be educated enough, must have own careers, own financial abilities, so that men will never think that we could not survive without them or we are just living on them.) and never get defeated easily by others who trying to hurt you. When failure comes, do not be fearful, as the best way to get rid of failure is to turning it into a motivation. Ace to succeed and prove yourself right.

......also, love is not occupation. Both parties of a relationship should give each other spaces. As too much of love can actually make one feel suffocated. Love is not just about how much you have given in or selfishness, neither about responsibility and respects. Hrm.....so, what is love? The answer is in your heart.

Lol neway it's sem-break atm. For this very short period only i can pamper myself with drama marathon. 

Done with four unit assessments, yet my recess week does not repay me with more relaxing life. Pile of assignments is awaiting me to be completed. Two done, another three to go *cry.. k larr, should just anesthetize myself with works as final exams are coming :) *cry again...

Jiayou Choon Ling :)

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Puppy in the house!

It's called 'Bling bling' and two months old now.

It's a pure breed of golden retriever. papa bought it last month.

Very adorable and alert but very naughty.

Now playing with it becomes my hobby dy :D

Not forgetting Jenny though. 

She looked so down. Being replaced not feeling good? :(

 

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Hrm... Mr. Brightness is busy with studies lately. I am sure he has done well preparation. First two papers today. Hope he can give his best shot and every thing goes fine :3 :)

暖心

 听着听着，让我想起了你，喨~

靠近你就覺得安心
因為你那雙愛笑眼睛
你笑我 貓一樣好奇
聰明又偏透著傻氣

Darling 我想告訴你
其實我比你愛我更愛你
善解人意 浪漫話語
彷彿一切命中注定

你的體貼 溫暖了我的心
就像夏天的風吹過那麼涼爽安靜
我輕輕依偎在你的懷裡
天空掛滿祝福的星星
你的體貼 溫暖了我的心
就像傾盆大雨 捨不得淋濕愛你的心
我要唱給你聽 陶醉在你給的甜蜜

Darling 我想告訴你
其實我比你愛我更愛你
善解人意 浪漫話語
彷彿一切命中注定

你的體貼 溫暖了我的心
就像夏天的風吹過那麼涼爽安靜
我輕輕依偎在你的懷裡
天空掛滿祝福的星星
你的體貼 溫暖了我的心
就像傾盆大雨 捨不得淋濕愛你的心
我要唱給你聽 陶醉在你給的甜蜜
你的體貼 溫暖了我的心
就像夏天的風吹過那麼涼爽安靜
我輕輕依偎在你的懷裡
天空掛滿祝福的星星
你的體貼 溫暖了我的心
就像傾盆大雨 捨不得淋濕愛你的心
我要唱給你聽 陶醉在你給的甜蜜
陶醉在你給的甜蜜

Repentance

Sigh... I am a crazy shopaholic. I am really afraid of  out on a spree now. I had spent too much...as in, really a-lot....in just a week. This makes me start feeling guilty and fearful of how terrible I am.... Always planned to go for window shopping only, but every time ended up with unplanned buying heaps of stuffs. I couldn't resist the temptation to buy clothing, skincare products,  and some japanese sweet stuffs. I guess if my parents knew about this, they would kill me without mercy or they would cut down my pocket money that merely survive me with monthly food. sigh... 

There must be a problem lying within me.... I have no other feeling when i do buying, i just try on whatever i like and pay. That's the big problem! I never think twice before buying. I am totally ill. I have no skill of managing my money cautiously. Such behavior has already scared me out. I should repent of my thoughtless act. seriously... 

I am a grown-up. Self-management is important. As a pharmacist-to-be, i must be self-disciplined. I must try to control myself not to simply spend a penny. They are my parents' hardwork.

Do not give easy promise Lynne.